I can't explain the way that I feel about my life right now but I can only say Praise be to God!  I have come such a long way from the little rat hole of a basement and the bed bugs that once afflicted me....I have gained so much experience and I have regained my confidence and perceptive eye which are key in being successful at anything. 

Currently, we are building a website for the band that we have Christened "Eli-Che"   Which it's not as easy as it seems because we don't really have that many pictures and also we are still building our repertoire so our music is growing month by month which is crazy because I've learned so much...>!!!

I seem to have gotten over all of my hang ups and I thank God for having allowed me to introspect and get rid of all of the things in my life that are truly not worth my time and energy on ^_^  I can only pray that as I continue on to new and exiting things that he will protect me from bad things that my come my way or jealous eyes. 

Amen

Eli (first to the left) Che (second to the left)  at a networking event for entrepreneurs....

Tonight, I am feeling a void inside of me....But is not a void of wanting company, it is not a void of God but it is an intellectual one, in which I desire to know more and have a solid foundation....In other words, I yearn for higher education and in one particular field called medicine....

It's weird because I remember since young, studying at hospitals, taking up apprenticeship programs, volunteering, taking human bio courses, bio courses, chemistry, physics, math etc....My best subject being dissection considering I had the most amazing memory in remembering all of the parts and keeping them in.....but thinking back on this I just feel like their is a void in my life, in which the intellectual part of me is dying...Practically, I feel like an idiot....I feel like there is a need in me to do something with my brain and the older I am getting the sadder I am becoming because I feel that I am wasting my youth.  I have examples to live by of adults who have gone back and gotten a higher education...As an example I have a friend who entered college when he was 34 without any degree (which is quite amazing) and now at 40 holds a master's degree in engineering....

At the moment I am currently singing professionally and I am still teaching languages, however, these do not suffice.  Sure, knowing so many languages might seem like a cool, interesting, and different thing but in Europe and other countries outside of America there are many like me...This is not a unique talent.....Singing is not unique, guitar playing is not unique, none of the talents that I possess are unique because there are many who have the ability to do such....For example, Albert Einstein was a chess player and a physicist and so therefore making me null....I am not a physicist....I am just a chess player....sux....

This Friday, on May 1st I will turn 26 and if I don't do something at this point, I might as well kiss my brain goodbye for after 30 the deterioration of cells is just inevitable and at the rate that I am going, in which I am always getting sick and something is always wrong with me, my future is not looking so bright....

The one and only thing that I could be ever so grateful is that at least I know Jesus Christ as lord and savior because he is the only one that when I am feeling blue can pick  me up and give me strength....I can only continue to pray that these blues, I have chanced upon tonight will go away....But, I am sure by the morrow I will be ok.....

Lord Hear My Prayer....amen

 

  1st update....So, I am finally in the music business singing and performing for people.  Am I as good as Celine Dion???...hmmm...not yet but I am working on it.  By the grace of God I have managed to find a great voice teacher who can actually pick out everything that goes wrong when singing and I have improved soooo much.  Of course, I must begin working hard again because I've been slacking a bit but then again I've only been working with my music teacher for 2 months now.....It's interesting how there was a time when I used to think singing was just about getting on a mic and showing off your God given talent.....However, real singing is quite quite difficult!!!!!!!!!  I should have tears in my eyes, everytime I am stopped from singing and told that it sounds awful.....but well whatever doesn't kill me will only make me stronger....

2nd update....I have straighten my hair and finally kissed the curly hair goodbye....25 years of my life I've had curly hair and finally I've managed to make is straight for 6 months permanently yay!!!!!!!  Here are the picturessssssssssssss
  

3rd update....My father's apartment finally got painted and they changed the floor tiles so the place looks spectacular...Praise God my brother could be there to help the cause and get things moving around the house.  This is why men are given more strenght than women, it's a shame when people try to switch up the roles due to identity crisis but I guess it's a normal thing when you have too many people in the world who are trying to satisfy each other's point of view......"Too many Chief's and not enough Indians"

 

During a relationship that I had with a certain man, that had left a deep impression on me, I was still falling into sin knowingly.  I was highly depressed and I knew that I needed to repent and turn my life to Christ so that I may be with God.  As Christians we know that if we are in sin, "our bones will become heavy" old testament.  So, I began to pray diligently and slowly I began to withdraw from that man.  Thanks to the fact that it was a certain holiday I never got to see that man again.  As difficult as it was at that time, I was able thanks to God to make the decision never to see that man again.   But I still held on to the fact that I had loved him which made me highly depressed.

Definitely just continuous prayer, and sincerity before God mainly was what allowed God to part me from that man.  Later on it was fasting and allowing myself to be filled with the holy spirit and his word (my daily bread) that allowed me to be delivered, from all things that kept me in bondage.  My life is now full of joy again as I have turned away from all sin.  I am so happy to share how filled with Joy, Thanksgiving, Breath of life, diligence and steadfastness in God's word I am.  Also, how much more understanding he has given me of things that I could not understand before and just how he has revealed himself to me in ways I never thought possible.  He truly wants us to be the best that we can be. 

Tonight as I was heading back home from church, I ran into an him and I was overjoyed simply because seeing him meant that I would see with my own eyes how he was doing.  Also I think it was a gift from God to allow me to see that I had won.  That I had overcome the fear that I had in facing him.  The dizziness I once felt when just talking to him.  In the end God's love was more powerful than anything and as I stood there in front of him I could just jump for joy knowing that I wasn't overtaken by the lies and deceit that once came out of his mouth and I could only praise God.

Now, I can finally now say that he has set me free and I will go and share the gospel, making disciples of all nations in his name.

Praise the lord Jesus Christ, forever, ever, and ever, AMEN.

So why is this Christmas more special than the previous Christmases?

Well, this Christmas is pretty cool because I have my tree all set up in my apartment ^_^  I have a driver's license, I have Christ in my life and I am surrounded by so many wonderful people, especially my old man . 

What a testimony to God's faithfulness in his disciples just as we are faithful to him ^_^   We have a reason to celebrate our lord Jesus Christ, this holiday season.  So let's share the joy with the rest of the world.

Hebrews 9:19-22

19 For when Moses had spoken every precept to all the people according to the law, he took the blood of calves and goats, with water, scarlet wool, and hyssop, and sprinkled both the book itself and all the people. 20 saying "This is the blood of the covenant which God has commanded you"21  Then likewise he sprinkled with blood both the tabernacle and all the vessels of the ministry. 22 And according to the law almost all things are purified with blood and without shedding of blood there is no remission.

This is history my friends, and if we keep this in mind, we can for sure see that Christ is our lord and savior.  Let us not be blind that Christ had to die for our sins and that he was the ultimate sacrifice (the perfect lamb) and that if we confess we are sinners and accept to lead a life like Jesus and accept him as our savior, remarkable changes are made in our life because he can deliver us from all evil. 

Have a blessed holiday season and don't forget the reason!

My Christmas tree....yes I designed it lolol





Me and Santa ^_^
 


 

My Kitchen ^_^  I happen to be painting a portrait...that's the thing on the counter... ^_^..yes I paint, sowwy for the mess.... ^_^